One day a spider set home inside mine. Small, black. Her loose web on the window sill. Creatures fatally trapped on her white lines. Gave me peace of mind and gave her a fill. Days later a larger spider appears. Narrow, with a white dot. It’s motionless. Dead or Alive? His presence raises fears. The window sill spider he does obsess. Observing. For days he is a statue. Every movement, adjustments to her strands. Fixated. He stares. I think what to do. Should I destroy him using unknown hands? Perhaps one not interfere with the wild. Perhaps I bleed into the world of beasts Perhaps the black spider can win when piled. Perhaps a hypocrite on flesh I feast. Does Nietzsche roll his eyes at such a sight? Questions we ask inside that do kill us. But he fucked in brothels in darkened light. And his brain melted down from syphilis. The next day I come to the window sill. I search the web, the frame, dread drags on. Perhaps I failed her and my free will. A dead man laughs, and both spiders are gone.
